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Feelings are not supposed to be logical..
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[Jul. 2nd, 2009|03:08 pm] |
life is good.
emotions are straight.
gazpacho is yummy too.
i am 22 years old and i need a life going before i turn 23. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|06:12 pm] |
Life is good.
I don't have the internet at the moment, no real reason other than we are too lazy to call and complain. I don't mind it too much.
I also don't have a cell phone. So...i am pretty much MIA.
I read a lot.
Being alone with myself is really good for me. I have thought a lot about myself and what i want in life.
I kind of feel as if i let people walk all over me sometimes.
I never really noticed.
I really want to Nap, but i am at Derek's house. They are outside fixing his Moped.
*burp* |
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[Jun. 18th, 2009|03:39 am] |
i have a horrible headache.
i dont know if i mentioned this or not but i am no longer in love. it feels nice.
but i do have love. |
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[Jun. 17th, 2009|03:25 am] |
i have so many goals in life.
ahh!!
oh, i have a date with a Sentman. who would have thought? |
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[Jun. 16th, 2009|02:28 am] |
i am reading the early diary of Anais Nin.
I love it. She makes me want to write.
I havent posted a real entry since i was on a bipolar low.
So. Good things that have happened are as follows:
I did my perfomance art piece. It went smoothly. I thank GreggreG for everything, which reminds me i need to write him a thank you card!
hmm i dont know what else.
I am an adult.
I am leaning towards child entertainment.
making books and knitting toys!
i want to do a children's show with puppets!
oh goodness. |
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[Jun. 15th, 2009|01:24 pm] |
i never want to wake up once i am asleep because i have such a hard time falling asleep.
beh. lol
my bipolar moods have evened out.
I need to get back to being social...but i no longer have a phone. |
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[Jun. 12th, 2009|05:06 am] |
i really need to smoke some pot.
In other news...i dont have a phone and its a good thing. |
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[Jun. 10th, 2009|04:55 pm] |
i am fucking exhausted because someone decided it would be a good idea to do the dishes @ 3am which of course means clanging glass together while running water.
...and then again at 9am.
And then someone called me restricted three times in a row.
i wish i could get some silence!!
i am going into work late today because i need to do laundry.
i wish i could sleep forever. |
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[Jun. 9th, 2009|02:06 am] |
i feel better muthafucka!
what.
haha |
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[Jun. 8th, 2009|04:18 pm] |
When im down i listen to the Wu-tang station
As soon as we text each other i cry. i need to stop doing that.
I was on a Bi-polar high last night.
it was nice. <3
ha, i hung out with someone new at 3AM we got pizza
derek makes me really sad
i deleted his phone number. |
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[Jun. 7th, 2009|05:02 am] |
Today i performed as Beeeatspie.
I will post pictures in time.
It consists of me eating pie dressed a a bee. I love it.
I met a new friend today. He name is Josh, he makes me laugh...i like when he smiles.
We hung out until 3am. He met me at the polish Library where i was dressed as a bee.
haha.
today was fun. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2009|02:55 am] |
animals do not feel regret but i do when i eat them.
which is why i have been a vegetarian for 3 years.
in other news:
i had a bipolar episode today. It was really bad. I cried so much that it looks like someone punched me in the eyes. I decided i do not want to talk with Derek anymore. I cannot handle the push and pull of emotions.
I am in love with him. I want to spend my life with him. Its the worst pain ever when the person you love doesn't want you. I cannot continue to be his friend. I am the third girlfriend of his to state this. His ex girlfriends have moved away and or ignored him. He says he is disappointed. Well, i am heart broken. |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2009|02:51 am] |
This past weekend was extremely fun a bit awkward and very outrageous.
High lights:
Mustache party
Lots of yummy foods
Wine
Anal pudding show
Fight with drunk Eryn
danced around
back to party
Ben cuddles.
Denied a threesome.
got mad at Eryn and sent her home.
No longer friends with Eryn because she likes to get drunk show her boobs to everyone then try to fuck all my friends.
comforting cuddles. |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2009|02:46 am] |
what is going on?
whatever it is i find it comforting.
i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you.
I am sorry i wasnt happy unless there was drama.
I learned my lesson please come back. |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2009|04:20 am] |
Dear Random person i meet out on a friday night,
no i do not want to have a three some with you...nor will i give you the time of day if you are aggressively trying to get into my pants.
Sincerely,
The cute friendly girl drinking wine.
i am losing faith in man kind.
i am pulling a Brandon lol. |
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| thanks Tom waits.... |
[May. 29th, 2009|04:30 am] |
It's always me whenever there's trouble
The world does nothing but turn
And the ring it fell off my finger
I guess I'll never learn
But it's over, it's over, it's over
I'm getting dressed in the dark
Our story ends before it begins
I always confess to everyone's sins
The nail gets hammered down
And it's over, let it go |
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[May. 29th, 2009|01:50 am] |
Sore throat fever has turned into sore throat which is accompanied by period cramps and complaining.
why cant i win!?
i just want to cuddle. lol.
i have a big super fun busy weekend planned! |
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| i thought this was funny! |
[May. 27th, 2009|09:02 pm] |
A sadist, a masochist, a murderer, a necrophile, a
zoophile and a pyromaniac are all sitting on a bench
in a mental institution, bored out of their minds.
"How about having sex with a cat?" asked the zoophile.
"Let's have sex with the cat and then torture it,"
says the sadist.
"Let's have sex with the cat, torture it and then kill
it," shouted the murderer.
"Let's have sex with the cat, torture it, kill it and
then have sex with it again," said the necrophile.
"Let's have sex with the cat, torture it, kill it,
have sex with it again and then burn it," said the
pyromaniac.
Silence took over... and the masochist says:
"Meow." |
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[May. 27th, 2009|01:26 am] |
today i talked to my sister about being crazy.
She is the same exact way!!
....exactly.
Tomorrow we are going to talk about the troubles of being Bipolar and single.
im excited!!
i am getting sick. My throat is sore. |
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[May. 26th, 2009|12:56 am] |
so apparently i am the crazy girl people like to have sex with. Ive been this person since i was 18. I love it and hate it in the same breath. I am too complicated to be in a relationship with.
I am exhausted,
I am the mistress? Yeah that sounds about right.
I am covered in love marks and bruises.
i am going to go to bed now. |
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